What will be shall be

Of loneliness and Despair

How do you define loneliness? she asked.

I guess loneliness is when you feel so emotionally down and full of despair and wanting to have someone to relate and talk to and when you scroll down your phone list and realise.. you don't have that somebody whom you can call. I replied.

Ha. Maybe that is as close as you can get. So what do you do when you are in that kind of mood? Anyone to call?

Nah. I don't really think so. I guess I'm lonely too. I guess I'm more of that type of person people will call than being the one to call. I'm not really that type to take initiative.

But it seems you are always surrounded by company. I think you don't really have much of a chance to feel lonely. Haha.

But I'm human too, ok? Haha. But I think I am more than capable of dealing with my own emotions. You? How you do deal with your emotions? Got that somebody to call?

Nah. Don't have. But I am not really that comfortable to call someone and talk about my feelings. Normally I will just indulge myself in my daily chores and forget about any loneliness or despair felt. I'm like you too. A listening ear rather than the 'victim'. Haha. And I'm a good listening ear too. So next time when you feel despair you should know who to call. She grinned.

Yah. Of course. I replied. I will call those 1800-chatlines and talk to those sweet little things as advertised to drive away my loneliness. Hopefully they are worth my money.

posted by malmoncolo @ 9:02 PM